A friend came home from college on Saturday and I believe it took her 30 minutes before she realised that she wanted to go back due to the lack of nothing. I don't blame her, but at the same time, it just makes me wish September would come around sooner. A year is long when all you do is nothing of excitment and suprise. The only exciting thing that seems to happen is when I spill something at work. And that is not a good excitment. And is it horrible to not be missing the people who left? I think if I lived in a city like Cambridge, I'd be perfectly content with my year out. Sure, I miss one or two, but that's really it. I don't think I feel as bad as I should since they are all out making friends for life and establishing thier future as we speak.

Then there is always that one person who has been a stumbling block for me as everytime I think of them I feel annoyed and angry. Not exactly the qualities of a forgiving Christian. And the problem is that I'd would actually quite like for our friendship to go back to the way it used to be, but she is not even aware that she has done anything wrong which makes me question whether I'm allowed to be angry with her or not. Last rambling point: it's not like I can easily discuss this with anyone left in my town as well since she is beloved by everyone and if we were both away at college, she would definitely be missed more that me.

I need to get out of this town. Just for a day at least and I think it needs to take place rather soon.

And lastly, my mood is not mainly tiredness. My computer just won't let me change it from my last journal entry.